Masha'Allah!

:) EID MUBARAK ALLS 

zee Shah boys 

Baby Lateefee 

:) 

Eid with Muhammad 

:) 

chillin with hanana-banana 

for a friend ;) and all other blah-blahers.....

salaam salaam

surreal revisited....
... i want to walk with you
on a cloudy day
in fields where the yellow grass grows
knee high...
:)

tis the mind that makes the body itch says:
welcome to surreal
tis the mind that makes the body itch says:
its crazy
tis the mind that makes the body itch says:
im not sure when it ends

:P -- standing reminder

salaam salaam

:bitter:
i cant sleep.
but i sure as hell can cry.

sweet dreams people, may they be littered with all the things you desire most (as long as they are good things)

i hate my blog for it no longer carries my voice.
i have been taking all my coats off, and feel less confident with evey single one i strip off. i wonder if anyone else can see a masterpiece unraveling.
bring me back my damn brush. if removing all the layers brings this upon me, i would rather doll myself back up, one coat at a time.

i hate many things right now. and yet i carry so much love within.
i wonder if the portion of black matches the portion of red.
i wonder who spilt all this blue -- its hiding all the yellow.
screw this, i want to be gold. i want gold to pour so hard that it seemingly obliterates every single pixel of originality, gold so glittery and bright i can make the girls in the hall ashamed.

i hate my fear. i hate damn machines that show things i dont wanna see and i hate feeling indifference. i hate the shrug of the shoulders and i hate the damn tears falling into my lap. what the hell kind of fool do i have to be to bring back turquoise.

hello? yeah this is a zyx.
deal with it.

salaam salaam

salaams all

do you ever sit back and think maybe im not in the right frame of mind to write something up? maybe im too emotional and may write something i may later regret?
and yet think i dont give a shnank if imma regret it, cuz i really really wanna just write whatevers on my mind and not give it another thought, oh the internal editor, the internal media relations, know your audience?
what to say? maybe merely Qana again? does anyone remember the images from the first one? the documentary? anyone at all?
i do
i remember the images of a baby with his head blown off and his mother holding his decapitated body and screaming tears of rage. they did it again? your kidding right? is this some kinda sick joke? i know it happened a few days ago, but im waiting for some media announcer to annouce "just jokes" into their microphone and be done with the images that bounce on the inside of my head, mirroring the images from ages ago, and yet its not, now there are new images to add, the little girl laying on the pavement and her father concealing her body with a blanket... theyr all fresh all new,
apparently learning from history is a bunch of bs we feed ourselves over and over and over again, "never again" is a campaign to make you hope and will make u turn a blind eye to all the fresh wounds, its all crap, that gets turned into someones new p.r campaign, and the world is supposta be spoon fed the "right" lines, the "right" point of view, gobble it all up and continue on with its sad insenstive consumer driven world, just buy buy buy and screw everything else, becuase guess what when ur in a mall or in a store the world outside ceases to exist, come into my welcoming folds and forget ur troubles outside, and while ur here why dont u put something on ur visa and spend money that u dont even own.
crap this all dont make sense,
talked to my uncle last night, they're "safe" they bombed the masna3, i wonder what excuse they used for that?
thanx for ur comments y'all and u Ahmed... jazaks
salaam salaam